anicharz

this time this year

lately morning feels like i’m not winning. it’s like i know a lot … lots of missing. there is a skyscraper takeover on 8th and broad, and i can’t go explore out of fear. the same old fear and the same old doubts like why dancing scares the hell out of me. and astrology says it will be fun to forget last year in the new year. and you are so sweet for reminding me of all that i can do alone.

this time, this year, is bigger than us, it goes on long after we’re gone! this town has taken it all out of us, made us look at our lives through new eyes. … i love you in so many ways. you taught me to give, to lose, to love, to be lost, and now how to want.

i held your shoulders. we cried in the dark. that was last year, and we were so scared. so when it comes march, will we march together? ride bikes to the river and wreck them along the way.

watching this magic show on channel 49.

There was these two irish d00dz on and they’re set was really funny and bloody, I loved it wish I got their namez.

Defiance, Ohio

An Interview! and about T-shirts….

hello everyone!

so.. i thought i would post a link to this interview we did with punknews, since we don’t do many interviews. for the most part, we kinda never got very into doing them because they never seemed to ask very meaningful questions and (for larger publications) waste a lot of paper. this one i felt OK about and it is on the internet so the only thing it can really waste is your time if you don’t enjoy it. you can find it here..

http://www.punknews.org/article/35595


xoxo!
ryan and defiance, ohio

hello my friend

I haven’t used a computer in a long time. In fact this isn’t even my computer.

quick update.

I’m doing great in school four A’s and two B’s

My new house is wonderful so peacful and I love my morning bike rides.

Things have been a little slow but it’s okay.

I’ve been writing in my journal everyday and reading more.

how are all of you?

Anissa Villa

Period five

October 13, 2009

AP English

Growing

 I am not finished defining myself, I have much more to discover much more to learn. I’ve met many wonderful people and have kept them close at heart for days, weeks, months and years. If I am to think back to an experience that has changed my life drastically nothing better comes to mind then the experiences I’ve had meeting so many amazing beings. Throughout time they have helped me find myself and who I really am and want to be. Without these people, I am so blessed to call friends; I don’t think I’d be the person I am today. As each day goes by I learn and love more about these friends of mine. It took me a while to come to terms with this and accept people into my life like so.

 When I was younger I wanted to grow up as soon as possible. This idea came from something inside me saying you’re not with the right crowd. It was true I never felt at place with the people I hung around with, they didn’t make me feel welcome and I was a complete outsider. Not to say they were a bad group of kids, just that I could not be myself with them. In middle school I was given the opportunity to move away from that whole scene and start anew. At first I was scared and wanted to hold back but I decided to give in and just go for it. So I started my journey through my adolescent years.

 Moving from San Ysidro Middle School to Southwest Middle School was a real big jump for me. Receiving a whole new schedule and being surrounded by strangers was intimidating. Everyone was studying me trying to figure out who I was and why I was interfering with their daily lives. At least that’s how I felt. Ever since my infant years I was a very social person, looking to make friends and never spoke with the intentions to hurt another. I tried talking to the people in my classes and would converse to anyone who tried talking to me. I took this change of schools as in opportunity to start a new and show everyone who I was and what I was worth. Unfortunately the first girl I tried talking to really through me off and made me feel extremely unwelcome. Ironically, that girl and I turned out to become the best of friends.

Although Cynthia and I started on the wrong hand, we were able to look past that and share something that to me is irreplaceable. It is hard for me to go a week or even two days without talking to her. She has been a great source of advice and always pushes me to do my best. I am not able to open up and be just myself with anyone else but her. Along with her, I also found the company of Bebiie, Paradise, Luna, Giselle, Gustavo, Kevin and Dapie, whom today belong to my closest group of friends. Despite the fact that I have shared disappointment with these people, I have also been able to acknowledge the best in them.

Along with these links, I also had the company of another outsider who has helped me expand my mind. I met, Joseph Sanchez or Jesse, outside of my cousin’s condominiums one morning. After about a year of his companionship, he soon became a close friend of the family although I would not talk to him so much. One summer however Jesse and I started to grow a lot closer and I felt it, I saw him not only as a friend of the family but as one of my best friend’s one whom I could confide in and laugh with. He introduced me to new sounds of music new ideas and wonderful people. One of the friends that Jesse introduced me to has been able to reach into my heart just the same.

Adam Bixel quickly proved to be a magnificent being. He showed many characteristics and talents that I admired. At first, I was shy around him, but it did not take too long for me to realize how great of a person he is. Without a doubt, he has truly encouraged me to keep my head held high and enjoy my youth as it is. I took in his excitement for many things and his openness to the world around. He is always very social and people warm up to him quickly. This encourages me to be more open and trusting with others. He has helped me gain confidence and has introduced me to many wonderful things. I cannot thank him enough for this.

These friends have taught me so much and helped me grow wiser over the years. I have both seen and gone through terrible experiences, magnificent moments, and have been able to take in the most beautiful of lessons with them. Each of them as individuals have shown me that there is good in this world, they help me enjoy life and every little thing I have. If they had not come along for me, I would be terribly lost right now. I am still trying harder to become a better person, and I am well aware that I will never stop growing but I can only hope that these few will grow along with me.

CRAMPZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

Today my parents get the keys to the house. At the same time of being super excited I’m a little scared. It’s gonna seem so big, I’m so used to being cramped together in this tiny apartment and I feel like a two story is so much. I guess in due time I’ll get used to it.